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First Born Son

from Bardo (digital LP) by Jordan Reyne

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A song about mothers who cannot love their daughters and are complicit in their abuse and neglect.


First Born Son

You told me I sound just like my father.
I asked you not to start up with that tune.
Cos if hurting me is really what you're after
Its just another way I'll disappoint you.

You used to tell me tales of first born sons,
How theyd seek lives of adventure, far away.
And tho I wasn't born dad's boy, or your pale princess,
Ive waited all my life for just this day.

So, mother, I'm gonna take my leave now.
There is nothing left to show you, or to prove.
Im sorry you won't see the things I hunt for.
But life doesn't come to those who will not move.

Oh lord, oh laudanum.
You found a man who sells you bottles and can fill up more and more of them
Oh lord, oh laudanum.
Konck 'em back so you can handle what he's doing to your children.
Oh laudanum.
Lord laudanum.

On my first day out I knew you'd never miss me.
And I slept watching the stars sparkle like tears.
No one tells us not all mothers love thier children.
And the weight of myth keeps us from speaking, far too many years.

And I ride on, underneath a sky so open
That no rules require me to repeat untruths.
When I come to water, I will drink, refreshed, and think of you.
Your broken smile, your need for pity, how your sorrow is no use.

Oh lord, oh laudanum.
Line them up and drink them down
In fact, why dont you just take all of them?
Oh lord, oh laudanum.
I kept your silence and your codes of war
But now Im breaking all of them.
Oh lord, oh laudanum.
Knock it back and take a look at what he's doing to your children.
Lord laudanum.
Lord laudanum.


from Bardo (digital LP), released December 23, 2018
All intruments performed by Jordan Reyne.
Written and performed by Jordan Reyne.


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Jordan Reyne Karlsruhe, Germany

Known recently as the Resident Evil 7 vocalist (trailer track, "Go Tell Aunt Rhody"), Jordan is described by New Zealand's National Radio as the pioneer of a new sound, Jordan's music is a blend of irish/ celtic rock, steam-era machine noise, and Grimms fairytale-eske lyrics. Imagine PJ Harvey trapped in the workhouses of Industrial Revolution era England, with only Nine Inch Nails for company. ... more

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